Archive for November, 2009

thank you

Posted in Uncategorized on November 24, 2009 by armedlittleboy

‘It’s not a breeding ground for romance. It’s love as a verb. Love that will make you more patient, more loyal, and stronger.’

– Emily Giffin

trust

Posted in Uncategorized on November 14, 2009 by armedlittleboy

that condom manufacturer sure knows what is important in any relationship (naked or otherwise),

trust.

who would enjoy sex when worries of pregnancy, stds, or the likes are screaming in your head?

you need to trust that accidents would not happen. that potential infections are kept at bay.

that one’s dick is safely cocooned in protective rubber.

its trusting that nothing will happen except bliss. pure bliss.

its really about trust. whether in bed or in love.

after all, is it even possible to love a person you do not trust?

is it even possible to lose yourself over someone when fears and doubts are tugging at you all night?

is it even possible to be happy with another person when thoughts of betrayal, cheating, and lies distract?

gandhi said that love is the prerogative of the brave,

and i believe him.

it takes great courage to jump off that cliff and trust that your love will be waiting to catch you as you fall down.

only the brave can trust despite past experiences that hurt, wounded, and disillusioned them.

only the brave can expose themselves again and again to possible pain amidst the numerous scars that they have earned.

only the brave can say ‘yes, i love you and i will always love you even if love has not been good to me in the past’

only the brave can love.

define love

Posted in Uncategorized on November 8, 2009 by armedlittleboy

Ilang beses ko na rin nasagot ang tanong na ‘what is love?’ mula sa di mabilang na slam books na dumaan sa aking buhay, mga walang katapusang usisaan ng mga kaibigan, at sa mga exams ng mga professors na tinamad mag-isip ng bagong bonus questions na itatanong.

At sa di mabilang na pagkakataon ng aking pagsagot ay ang ilang beses na pagbabago ng aking isinasagot.

Grade 2: Love is blind

Grade 5: Love is what makes the world go round

Grade 6: Love conquers all

High school: Love is giving 100% without expecting anything in return

College: Ang pag-ibig ay ang paglilingkod sa sambayanan

7 years ago: Anung pag-ibig? Meron bang ganun?

Ngayon:

Love is staying. Love is being free to go but choosing to stay, and being happy about it. It is getting drenched in the rain, wading in knee-deep flood water, sleeping with a sunflower beside you and waking up early to buy yellow roses.

It is to commit, to understand, and to accept. Love is not blind. It sees all the imperfections and says ‘so what?’. Love is all about hugging tightly. Love is giving but it also means the willingness to accept. To accept mood swings, tantrums, and the occasional rifts. It’s about a dazzling smile.

Love is calm, the storm, and the calm after the storm. It’s the laughter, it’s the tears. It’s going back when everybody else will run away. It’s saying, ‘it’s all right, it’s okay, I am here because you are you’.

Love is not about not getting angry. Love is being angry but still staying. Love is stronger than anger. It’s bigger than all the imperfections summed together. Love is strong. It’s resilience. It’s a survivor.

Love is a sunflower. It’s elmo. It’s sunshine. It’s you.

Medyo humaba ang definition ko ng Love. So in short at para bumagay sa popular one-liner definitions ng Love, summarize ko na lang. Love is you.

end of the line

Posted in Uncategorized on November 7, 2009 by armedlittleboy

ever had that feeling of being stuck? of having no options left but to stay, sit, and be still? of having things happen around you while you sit there immobile and helpless?

well im having one right now.

the year is about to end and it seems its not just the year that is ending.

its ironic that for every accomplishments that one makes transform into added baggage that one has to drag wherever one seeks to go.

i miss that time during college when i have finally submitted the last requirement for my graduation, the thesis. i felt a lightening inside of me as the final obligation has been fulfilled. no more tasks to do, no more sleepless nights, no more cramming, no more shoulds.

it feels as if life is wide open right in front of me and i can go everywhere i choose. like a newly discovered continent, life seems to be full of adventure and promise. i can go anywhere, i can do anything.

fast forward a few years and it seems that from that wide open space, i have boxed myself into a corner. fenced myself with the experiences i have obtained and leashed my future to the skills that i have learned.

suddenly, it feels as if the things that i can do are only those things that i know how to do.

and disturbingly i keep catching myself limiting myself. as i glance through the classifieds, as i try to map my life, as i make plans, the boundaries inside my head start to emerge and i find myself entering the cage, closing the door behind me, and locking it. tight.

life has become a one-way, single-lane street.

it feels that i need super human powers to break away from this cage despite the expectations and the obligations.

i am stuck. i sat on a pathetic gum. and i cant fucking move.