They call it the “Quarter-life Crisis.”

(hango sa isang email)

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and
start realizing that there are many things about
yourself that you didn’t know and may not like.

You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will
be in a year or two, but then get scared because you
barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and
that, maybe, those friends that you thought you
were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people
you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch
with are some of the most important ones.

What you don’t recognize is that they are realizing
that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or
insincere but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job… and it is not even close to
what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you
are looking for a job and realizing that you are
going to have to start at the bottom and that
scares you.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what
others are doing and find yourself judging more than
usual because suddenly you realize that you have
certain boundaries in your life and are constantly
adding things to your list of what is acceptable
and what isn’t.

One minute, you are insecure and then the next,
secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of
your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly,
change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the
past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is
drifting further and further away, and there
is nothing to do but stay where you are or move
forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone
you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lay in
bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough
that you want to get to know better.

Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too
and cannot figure out why you are doing this
because you know that you aren’t a bad person.

One-night-stands and random hook ups start to
look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot
starts to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over
and over, and talk with your friends about the same
topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans, money, the future and making a
life for yourself… and while winning the race
would be great, right now you’d just like to be a
contender! What we may not realize is that everyone
reading this relates to it.

We are in our best of times and our worst of times,
trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing
out.

Life’s a bitch… just learn how to fuck it!

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