Archive for July, 2008

bob ongism

Posted in Uncategorized on July 22, 2008 by armedlittleboy

im not really a bob ong reader

i have read only one book of his (abnkkbsnplko) though i was given another one by my boss (ang libro ni hudas— wonder if she’s trying to tell me something) which i havent had the enthusiasm to read yet

well one fine day ( i so love that song), i came upon an internet forum devoted to qoutable quotes from his books

some are really nice. so here goes…

1. “Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka.”

2. “mahirap magmalasakit sa buong mundo habang natitisod ka sa mga nagkalat na pulubi sa sarili mong bansa.”

3. “kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang nakayapak,pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. kung hindi mo kayang umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan.”

4. “meron lang mga taong masarap gawan ng kabutihan tulad ni zhang ziyi. amen. zhang ziyi… pray for us”

5. “mangarap ka at abutin mo ‘to. wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. kung may pagkukulang sa’yo mga magulang mo, pwede kang manisi at maging rebelde. tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa bandang huli, ikaw din ang biktima. rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili.”

6. “mag-aral maigi; kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka sa pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher.”

7. “Ang pagkitil sa sariling buhay ay karapatan lamang ng mga taong gumagamit ng celfone at nakikipagkwentuhan sa loob ng sinehan.”


my mom is weird

Posted in mom on July 19, 2008 by armedlittleboy

the list my mom made of things she will buy in her 2 month vacation abroad (took a peek when she was not looking):

– running shoes (thats for me)

– sneakers (thats for me again)

– shirts (yep thats mine)

– jeans (who else? mine of course)

– coffee

– bag

– eyeliner

– juicer (hhmmm)

– pampatay ng insekto (her actual words)

– gripo (wtf??!!)

the art of wine drinking (or how to drink wine when you dont know how to drink wine)

Posted in Uncategorized on July 13, 2008 by armedlittleboy


a deep breath will help.

pretend you’re a connoisseur, don’t show excitement nor apprehension nor fear.

appreciate first the wine glass, its graceful ascension from the base to the tip of the rim (which will soon commune with your lips)

witness as the wine is poured, listen to its melodic sound and marvel at the purity of its color. never again will it look and sound as magical as the first time you witness its baring.

let it settle. let it breathe. let it relax and give it time to revert back to what it is really is.

then hold the stem of the glass and swirl the wine inside it.

make it feel that you are in control. at least for now.

then take a sip.

just a sip. you dont want to look desperate nor parched.

roll that within your mouth and feel the flavor and aroma invading your body.

remember, only take sips. prolong the art of surrender, the highlight of its invasion.

at the moment of letting go, let go. fully. feel your head whirl, your heart jump, your senses lost amidst the joyous tones of intoxication.

be one with the wine. celebrate the peak of oneness. in a few hours, tomorrow, or maybe days after you would reminisce about this.

sip as much as you can. but realize, that for every sip you take, you expose yourself to pains and aches you never imagine possible.

the day after you will wake up pretty much where you started. alone.

do not ever blame the wine. it was your hands that raised the glass to your lips.

but dont let this hold you back. every sip is worth every pain.

and as proof, you will go back, again and again to the bottle, to feel what you have lost.

and as you go back. it will feel as if youre drinking it again for the first time.

expectant. hopeful. vulnerable.

bitter pill

Posted in Uncategorized on July 8, 2008 by armedlittleboy

Its raining. The skies are dark. The air is cold.

I decided to reread ‘The Hours’. Its by Micheal Cunningham.

Probably the most depressing novel that I ever came across.

Its depressing.

Because its real.

It slaps you with the truth of your existence.

Its dark and cold out there.

It had seemed like the beginning of happiness, and Clarissa is still sometimes shocked, more than thirty years later, to realize that it was happiness; that the entire experience lay in a kiss and a walk, the anticipation of dinner and a book…What lives undimmed in Clarissa’s mind more than three decades later is a kiss at dusk on a patch of dead grass, and a walk around a pond as mosquitoes droned in the darkening air. There is still that singular perfection, and it’s perfect in part because it seemed, at the time, so clearly to promise more. Now she knows: That was the moment, right then. There has been no other.

We live our lives, do whatever we do, and then we sleep. It’s as simple and ordinary as that. A few jump out windows, or drown themselves, or take pills; more die by accident; and most of us are slowly devoured by some disease, or, if we’re very fortunate, by time itself. There’s just this for consolation: an hour here or there when our lives seem, against all odds & expectations, to burst open & give us everything we’ve ever imagined, though everyone but children (and perhaps even they) know these hours will inevitably be followed by others, far darker and more difficult. Still, we cherish the city, the morning, we hope, more than anything for more. Heaven only knows why we love it so.

ramblings of a premature death

Posted in marwinisms on July 7, 2008 by armedlittleboy

i wonder why in a world of 24/7 McDonalds, heavy duty batteries, and extended contact lenses…

my relationships never seem to get an extended shelf-life

i always get the instant, ready to eat, disposable encounters

that leave me feeling full and empty at the same time

the hunger pangs have ceased but still my mouth waters for real food.

at night, i have realized that a pillow is a poor substitute for a warm body.

maybe i can inject botox into every pseudo relationships in my life

but then again, who wants a long-lasting but inflexible companionship devoid of laugh lines?

the trouble with these type of pain relievers is that it tends to linger long after its efficacy

like echoes taunting and reminding you of their impending demise,

you still hear them as you popped in the next pill.

can one actually hold a bubble in one’s palm and bring it home to mother?

i tried and tried, but they always burst upon contact.

now i know what i should feel when watching a fireworks display,

amazement and wonder and sadness.

you light up the sky only to remind me of its darkness.

the tragedy that is now

Posted in Uncategorized on July 3, 2008 by armedlittleboy

According to Tom Engelhardt (author of The End of Victory Culture), the terrorist attacks of 9/11 had successfully goaded the US government to irresponsibly use the powers they have at hand in worthless and resources-draining campaigns that would eventually tip the balance of power against it. He gave 15 signs that manifest the irresponsible response the US government has given to this crisis

536,000,000,000: the number of dollars the Pentagon is requesting for the 2009 military budget. This represents an increase of almost 70% over the Pentagon’s 2001 budget of $316 billion – and that’s without factoring in “supplementary” requests to fund the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, as well as the President’s Global War on Terror. Add in those soaring sums and military spending has more than doubled in the Bush era. According to the Center on Budget and Policy Priorities, since 2001, funding for “defense and related programs… has jumped at an annual average rate of 8%… – four times faster than the average rate of growth for Social Security, Medicare, and Medicaid (2%), and 27 times faster than the average rate for growth for domestic discretionary programs (0.3%).”

1,390,000: the number of subprime foreclosures over the next two years, as estimated by Credit Suisse analysts. They also predict that, by the end of 2012, 12.7% of all residential borrowers may be out of their homes as part of a housing crisis that caught the Bush administration totally off-guard.

1,000,000: the number of “missions” or “sorties” the U.S. Air Force proudly claims to have flown in the Global War on Terror since 9/11, more than one-third of them (about 353,000) in what it still likes to call Operation Iraqi Freedom. This is a good measure of where American energies (and oil purchases) have gone these last years.

509,000: the number of names found in 2007 on a “terrorist watch list” compiled by the FBI. No longer, in George Bush’s America, is a 10 Most Wanted list adequate. According to ABC News, “U.S. lawmakers and their spouses have been detained because their names were on the watch list” and Saddam Hussein was on the list even when in U.S. custody. By February 2008, according to the American Civil Liberties Union, the names on the same FBI list had ballooned to 900,000.

300,000: the number of American troops who now suffer from major depression or post-traumatic stress, according to a recent RAND study. This represents almost one out of every five soldiers who served in Iraq or Afghanistan. Even more – approximately 320,000 – “report possible brain injuries from explosions or other head wounds.” This, RAND reports, represents a barely dealt with “major health crisis.” The depression and PTSD alone will, the study reported, “cost the nation as much as $6.2 billion in the two years following deployment.”

51,000: the number of post-surge Iraqi prisoners held in American and Iraqi jails at the end of 2007. In that country, the U.S. now runs “perhaps the world’s largest extrajudicial internment camp,” Camp Bucca, whose holding capacity is, even now, being expanded from 20,000 to 30,000 prisoners. Then there’s Camp Cropper, with at least 4,000 prisoners, including “hundreds of juveniles.” Many of these prisoners were simply swept up in surge raids and have been held without charges or access to lawyers or courts ever since. Add in prisoners (in unknown numbers) in our sizeable network of prisons in Afghanistan, at Guantanamo, and in our various offshore and borrowed prisons; add in, as well, the widespread mistreatment of prisoners at American hands; and you have the machinery for the manufacture of vast numbers of angry potential enemies, some undoubtedly willing to commit almost any act of revenge. Though there is no way to tabulate the numbers, hundreds of thousands of prisoners have certainly cycled through the Bush administration’s various prisons in these last seven years, many emerging embittered. (And don’t forget their embittered families.) Think of all this as an enormous dystopian experiment in “social networking,” the Facebook from Hell without the Internet.

5,700: the number of trailers in New Orleans – issued by the Federal Emergency Management Agency as temporary housing after Hurricane Katrina – still occupied by people who lost their homes in the storm almost three years ago. Such trailers have also been found to contain toxic levels of formaldehyde fumes. Katrina (“Brownie, you’re doing a heck of a job”) was but one of many security disasters for the Bush administration.

658: the number of suicide bombings worldwide last year, including 542 in Afghanistan and Iraq, “more than double the number in any of the past 25 years.” Of all the suicide bombings in the past quarter century, more than 86% have occurred since 2001, according to U.S. government experts. At least one of those bombers – who died in a recent coordinated wave of suicide bombings in the Iraqi city of Mosul – was a Kuwaiti, Abdallah Salih al-Ajmi, who had spent years locked up in Guantanamo.

511: the number of applicants convicted of felony crimes, including burglary, grand larceny, and aggravated assault, who were accepted into the U.S. Army in 2007, more than double the 249 accepted in 2006. According to the New York Times, between 2006 and 2007, those enrolled with convictions for wrongful possession of drugs (not including marijuana) almost doubled, for burglaries almost tripled, for grand larceny/larceny more than doubled, for robbery more than tripled, for aggravated assault went up by 30%, and for “terroristic threats including bomb threats” doubled (from one to two). Feel more secure yet?

126: the number of dollars it took to buy a barrel of crude oil on the international market this week. Meanwhile, the average price of a gallon of regular gas at the pump in the U.S. hit $3.72, while the price of gas jumped almost 20 cents in Michigan in a week, 36 cents in Utah in a month, and busted the $4 ceiling in Westchester, New York, a rise of 65 cents in the last year. Just after the 9/11 attacks, a barrel of crude oil was still in the $20 range; at the time of the invasion of Iraq in March 2003, it was at about $30. In other words, since 9/11, a barrel of crude has risen more than $100 without the Bush administration taking any serious steps to promote energy conservation, cut down on the U.S. oil “addiction,” or develop alternative energy strategies (beyond a dubious program to produce more ethanol).

82: the percentage of Americans who think “things in this country‚Ķ have gotten pretty seriously off on the wrong track,” according to the most recent Washington Post-ABC News poll. This is the gloomiest Americans have been about the “direction” of the country in the last 15 years of such polling.

40: the percentage loss (“on a trade-weighted basis”) in the value of the dollar since 2001. The dollar’s share of total world foreign exchange reserves has also dropped from 73% to 64% in that same period. According to the Center for American Progress, “By early May 2008, a dollar bought 42.9% fewer euros, 35.7% fewer Canadian dollars, 37.7% fewer British pounds, and 17.3% fewer Japanese yen than in March 2001.”

37: the number of countries that have experienced food protests or riots in recent months due to soaring food prices, a global crisis of insecurity that caught the Bush administration completely unprepared. In the last year, the price of wheat has risen by 130%, of rice by 74%, of soya by 87%, and of corn by 31%.

0: the number of terrorist attacks by al-Qaeda or similar groups inside the United States since September 11, 2001.