Archive for December, 2007

easy postings

Posted in Uncategorized on December 26, 2007 by armedlittleboy

top 2 things found in your wallet as
atm card saka gym card

top 2 things to do when I’m sad:
write and be with my sunshine (aso ko yun. mishu shine!)

top 2 songs you can listen to again
and again:
here comes the sun by the beatles/ luha by aegis

top 2 reasons to watch tv:
to stop thinking and to drown out the silence

top 2 current obsessions:

being free but having money

top 2 favorite nicknames:
arvz, marwin

top 2 favorite food:
sushi, noodle soup

top 2 favorite website:
syempre itong blog ko saka wala na lolz

top 2 favorite things to do:
sleeping and holding hands

top 2 favorite places:
my room, sunken garden

top 2 movies I could watch over and
silence of the lambs, the hours

top 2 things you cant live without:
books, movies

top 2 colors you want:
green, blue

top 2 favorite pets
si shine! mishu shine!

top 2 u do b4 u sleep:
internet, drink milk

top 2 u do when u wake-up:
internet, shine!

top 2 u always do everyday:
feel, accept


gifts, doubts, shirts

Posted in Uncategorized on December 16, 2007 by armedlittleboy

went christmas shopping today

its 8 days before christmas and i have not bought a single gift yet

this is maybe due to a confluence of factors

the first would be the lack of time

we have been slaving away in the office that i dont think anyone of us have started the gift giving process yet

then its also the lack of money

our expected manna from the capitalistic system has not materialized for this month (the only thing that came into being are big boobs from beautiful transvestites)

so there is some hesitation in spending especially if it means charging the goodies

then finally there is the uncertainty of what to give

this has been a problem of mine ever since

i tend to hold out till the last minute because i might come across something better for those i will give gifts to after i purchase

but anyway as i was saying i went christmas shopping today

i was determined to buy at least a single gift so i can make headway in my daunting list

i spent more than 3 hours going from one store to another

walking across 2 malls a number of times

mumbling to myself on which is the best option

which gift would be best appreciated

which would make the person i would give the gift to jump for joy upon opening the wrappings

3 conflicting and exhausting hours in deciding which gift to buy

until i finally decided to buy a couple of shirts for myself

i dont know how it happened

i just found myself exiting the store carrying my purchases

i went home without buying a single gift

except to myself

and i am not proud of that

but i of course could not be blamed

i mean its so hard to buy gifts for other people

there is this nagging uncertainty on what they will consider as a good gift for them

i so wanted to be giving and generous

and i was so primed and conditioned to do just that

but my doubts waylaid me

i want every gift i give to be perfect (who doesnt?)

but i am not sure just yet what the perfect gift is for each of the names on my list

so being in the mall feeling generous but doubtful

would predictably result to one thing

if i cant be generous to others because of my lingering doubts on what they would like

my generosity would then insist on finding other ways of release

so i became generous to myself

i passed a store,

saw a nice shirt,

saw another nice shirt on the act of getting the first nice shirt from the rack,

and being the just person that i am,

i fitted both shirts,

and bought them.

it was not really my fault

it was generosity’s fault

blame it.

the other side

Posted in Uncategorized on December 9, 2007 by armedlittleboy

i have been reading a really funny book entitled ‘Lamb: the gospel according to Biff, Christ’s childhood pal’ by Christopher Moore

it tells the story of Jesus when he was growing up, the part of his life that was not mentioned in the Bible

a Jesus learning kung fu, yoga poses, public speaking, and even the intricacies of sex

a Jesus being trained by a buddhist monk and a yogi master

some may find it a bit blasphemous but it is of course done in the spirit of fun

it is after all refreshing to see something in a different light

a repositioning of perspectives

a change in views

finding something to smile or even laugh about in things that we tend to take seriously

too seriously.

i remember a story i read years ago

about a traveler who wants to cross to the other side of the river

he shouted at a woman doing laundry at the opposite bank, asking how to get to the other side

and the woman answered ‘but you’re already on the other side’

life is really a matter of perspective

and this i try to remember as i go through life

it depends on where and how you want too look at it

life can either be good or bad regardless of what’s happening

it just depends on where you want to view it

so lets be kind to ourselves

lets occupy the window seat

lets take the scenic route

lets enjoy the view

take lots of pictures

and be sure to smile.

the rat wheel

Posted in Uncategorized on December 2, 2007 by armedlittleboy

bought a new phone today

its quite nice

got a good camera, wifi, and looks really good too

gave me a couple of hours of happiness then im faced with my so so existence again

this is the problem when happiness is derived from things one can purchase

it does not last

it feels good but it does not last

i have to buy and buy and buy again just to feel the happiness that i crave for

its a vicious cycle

a really vicious cycle

i guess if i look at the money im spending as time im wasting i would wake up from this trance

the phone cost me 15 days of my life

the laptop 60 days of my life

a day went to a shirt

10 days went to the mp3 player

2 days to the pair of jeans

im throwing away my days, my life for these things

these things i leave at home or at my desk or in my bag while I slave away the day so as to be able to buy more things

again and again and again

we are not really rats in a race

we are rats in an exercise wheel

running faster and faster

without getting anywhere