Archive for October, 2007

Words, wide night

Posted in Uncategorized on October 26, 2007 by armedlittleboy

Somewhere on the other side of this wide night
and the distance between us. I am thinking of you.
The room is turning slowly away from the moon.

This is pleasurable. Or shall I cross that out and say
it is sad? In one of the tenses Im singing
an impossible song of desire that you cannot hear.

La lala la. See? I close my eyes and imagine
the dark hills I would have to cross
to reach you. For I am in love with you and this

is what it is like or what it is like in words.

by Carol Ann Duffy (The Other Country)


tuesday: raining

Posted in Uncategorized on October 23, 2007 by armedlittleboy

Happy Ending

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can’t get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I’ve ever told
No hope, or love, or glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I feel as if I’m wastin’
And I’m wastin’ everyday

2 o’clock in the morning, something’s on my mind
Can’t get no rest; keep walkin’ around
If I pretend that nothin’ ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

A Little bit of love, little bit of love
Little bit of love, little bit of love

I feel as if I feel as if I’m wastin’
And I’m wastin’ everyday

definitions 101

Posted in Uncategorized on October 23, 2007 by armedlittleboy


“Yung TV na manipis, parang picture frame lang sya pero malaki na picture frame”

– Nanay ko

Labrador dog

“Magulo. Dila pa ng dila ang baho naman”

– Nanay ko uli

 Mefenamic Acid

“Gamot yan sa sakit ng tiyan, inumin mo na”

– Syempre nanay ko na naman

Cough medicine

“May ubo ka? Teka ipipitas kita ng oregano”

– Who else?

jump jump jump

Posted in Uncategorized on October 21, 2007 by armedlittleboy

have you ever experienced running-diving into a swimming pool with your friends,

fully clothed,

all at the same time,

into the cold water,

only to realize that youre the only one who made the jump,

and they, dry and warm at the poolside, are all laughing at you for actually going through with it?

of actually believing that they would jump too?

and get themselves cold and wet?

i didnt

but i know how it must feel

i know how it feels to be alone in mid-air

to make that jump,

and to look back as i fall and see my supposed jump-companion still firmly standing on solid ground,

i know how it feels to be wading in cold water,

looking up and waiting, hoping, wishing, for another body to splash into the welcoming water

i know how it feels to take a risk for somebody who is not willing to take the same risk for me

its like holding hands,

running towards the pool,

making the jump,

and feeling at the last moment,

the untangling of fingers,

the widening space between palms,

and the  sudden weightlesness of my hand which a second ago was holding something worth jumping for,

i know how it feels,

it feels cold,

it feels empty,

it feels like this.  

hug para kay marion raven

Posted in Uncategorized on October 20, 2007 by armedlittleboy

ikinanta ako ni marion raven

naintindihan niya ako

kahit asan man sya ngayon

at wala na siyang hit song

totoo ang sinabi nya

“this is the last of illusions….. talk to me, dont play me with your silence”

malapit ko nang buksan ang radyo

humanap ng istasyon na may maingay na kanta 

itodo ang volume

at iwanan ang katahimikan

its time

Posted in Uncategorized on October 17, 2007 by armedlittleboy

its time i start trusting people

really trust people

really trust you

its time i let my guard down and welcome you without any wariness or reservations

because thats the only way to have you in my life

open and vulnerable

i would lie in your palms like an infant would in the mother’s womb

dependent on biology’s laws and physiology’s whims

i would experience you like a child taking his first steps

freeing but uncertain

its time i take risks for something that matters

its time i take chances for someone who makes me smile

its time to be with you

really and fully be with you

its time to dismantle my training wheels and brave the rough road towards you

i would fall

i would get wounded

i would rise

i would find my way to you .


Posted in Uncategorized on October 12, 2007 by armedlittleboy

Kapag sigurado

nang ikaw ang laman

ng maulap niyang kamalayan,

sa susunod mong sulyap

sabayan mo ng isang di sinasadya,

medyo nangingimi,

ngunit pinakamaganda mong ngiti

– Rody Vera, Tip sa paghahagip

(Kailan ko kaya ingingiti ang pinakamaganda kong ngiti?)