Words, wide night

Somewhere on the other side of this wide night
and the distance between us. I am thinking of you.
The room is turning slowly away from the moon.
This is pleasurable. Or shall I cross that out and say
it is sad? In one of the tenses Im singing
an impossible song of desire that you cannot hear.
La lala la. [...]

tuesday: raining

Happy Ending
This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it’s forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can’t get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A [...]

definitions 101

LCD TV
“Yung TV na manipis, parang picture frame lang sya pero malaki na picture frame”
- Nanay ko
Labrador dog
“Magulo. Dila pa ng dila ang baho naman”
- Nanay ko uli
 Mefenamic Acid
“Gamot yan sa sakit ng tiyan, inumin mo na”
- Syempre nanay ko na naman
Cough medicine
“May ubo ka? Teka ipipitas kita ng oregano”
- Who else?

jump jump jump

have you ever experienced running-diving into a swimming pool with your friends,
fully clothed,
all at the same time,
into the cold water,
only to realize that youre the only one who made the jump,
and they, dry and warm at the poolside, are all laughing at you for actually going through with it?
of actually believing that they would jump too?
and [...]

hug para kay marion raven

ikinanta ako ni marion raven
naintindihan niya ako
kahit asan man sya ngayon
at wala na siyang hit song
totoo ang sinabi nya
“this is the last of illusions….. talk to me, dont play me with your silence”
malapit ko nang buksan ang radyo
humanap ng istasyon na may maingay na kanta 
itodo ang volume
at iwanan ang katahimikan

its time

its time i start trusting people
really trust people
really trust you
its time i let my guard down and welcome you without any wariness or reservations
because thats the only way to have you in my life
open and vulnerable
i would lie in your palms like an infant would in the mother’s womb
dependent on biology’s laws and physiology’s whims
i [...]

kailan?

Kapag sigurado
nang ikaw ang laman
ng maulap niyang kamalayan,
sa susunod mong sulyap
sabayan mo ng isang di sinasadya,
medyo nangingimi,
ngunit pinakamaganda mong ngiti
- Rody Vera, Tip sa paghahagip
(Kailan ko kaya ingingiti ang pinakamaganda kong ngiti?)

Here’s a valentine

Not a red rose or a satin heart.I give you an onion.
It is a moon wrapped in brown paper.
It promises light
like the careful undressing of love.
Here.
It will blind you with tears
like a lover.
It will make your reflection
a wobbling photo of grief.
I am trying to be truthful.
Not a cute card or kissogram.
I give you an onion.
Its [...]

the cookie was right

today, we were together again
went to trinoma but its too crowded
proceeded to greenhills
bought a fortune cookie
it said:
‘Better to ask the way ten times than to get lost once’
how accurate can it get?
it hits me right here, where i feel
i better ask
and i will.

fight or flight?

they (the experts) said that we are governed by the fight or flight response
in the face of stress or a threatening situation, we tend to either fight (manifested through aggressive and combative behavior) or flight (fleeing a potentially threatening situation)
 in modern times, the fight or flight response is manifested through more complex behavior
when we fight [...]